Thursday, July 23, 2009

The Professor & The Prostitute

[the Professor:]

"I don't need no rising moon
I don't need no ball and chain
I don't need anything but you
Such a shame, shame, shame
Shame, shame, shame - shame is the shadow of love

"You changed my life
We were as green as grass
And I was hypnotized
From the first 'til the last, kiss of
Shame, shame, shame - shame is the shadow of love

"I'd jump for you into the fire
I'd jump for you into the flame
Tried to go forward with my life
I just feel shame, shame, shame
Shame, shame, shame - shame is the shadow of love

"And if you tell a lie
I still would take the blame
If you pass me by
It's such a shame, shame, shame"

Shame- P.J. Harvey

[the Prostitute:]

"This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass

"This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

"Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

"My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins

"Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

"Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heartLost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

"Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore

"Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

"Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

"Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore"

Nemo- Nightwish

Thursday, April 2, 2009

The Apocalypse of Zixlai

Yesterday I was looking on ReligiousForums.com and came upon a thread posted by a friend, including photos of a Pentagram found in a cave, dated to the 2nd Century BC, in Israel. At first, I was simply fascinated by it, the possiblity that it could have been a ritual item, maybe for passing on mathematical secrets. Until I saw the note, depicting the letters engraved on the Pentagram. They spelled out "Jerusalem". (Here's a link:)
http://www.religiousforums.com/forum/games-pics-jokes-stories/78525-pentagram-seal-2nd-century-bce-judah.html

This sent a shockwave through me. It was precisely like a vision I had 13 years ago. It was December 30, 1995. Heres the entry from my Magick Journal from that day:

'Dream: A girl in Texas, involved in a traffic accident [normal dream stuff]...at that moment, the dream turned, and it was as if a powerful presence had entered my dream, as it suddenly became clear and vivid, and a loud voice said:"--You shall not speak unrightly if you call this the Apocalypse." Then an image appeared of an inverted pentagram [orange lines], inside were Hebrew letters, but they were shifting and hard to see....on the left [the words] "Dominaeus-Dominaei+Douid", on the right "Regnaeus-Regnuii+Elias"...also, in the center, I saw a circular pool of water, through which I could see the city of Jerusalem (as if behind a curtain of water)...The pentagram faded, and the dream then returned to its previous, non-clear state, continuing the story about the motorcycle accident...'

So, when I see the Pentagram from my vision of 13 years ago, suddenly appear in real life, before my very eyes, I am more than a little shaken by this.

Prior to this I was focussing only on my own little world, but this has opened my eyes to the possiblity that there is something very big about to go down. I am thinking, now might be a good time to tell everyone I love how good it has been to have known them.

You know, just in case a big meteor (or worse) might be coming. Oh, no, I am not in a bad mood. Far from it. But thats part of what disturbs me. So far, I have never felt any strange vibe, prior to something really bad happening in the objective world. Contrary to what some may believe, I dont think its possible to predict a catastrophe. I think they happen, and then later, people retro-actively project a feeling onto strange occurrences, which might have told them had they been paying attention, but no...nobody ever knows with certainty.

On the other hand, this 'Apocalypse' could be (as my sister says) just personal sign of my own awakening. Perhaps it is signalling I am free from Karma? I know this last year has been spent delving deep into my Karma and uncovering parts of my soul I had walled off from myself.

Perhaps thats all it is. If so, I will embrace it joyfully.

If not, well,...all I'm saying is, try to enjoy whatever life brings you. Ya never know. The person you help, could turn out to be Jupiter in disguise! ;-)

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Mike's Magick Circle

So, I finally decided to give in to the tide of modernity and start casting out my thoughts into the aethyr. As if I wasnt already busy enough!But Ive been thinking for a while now, it might be useful to have an online record of my magical to-ings and fro-ings, as my thought-stream flows so quickly I am finding it well nigh impossible to swim against the current and reclaim thoughts I had just a few days ago.

This results in months later, when what should have been obvious comes rapidly to the foreground, and here I am banging my head going "Oh why oh why did I not see that coming?"'cuz had I written it down, then came back to it in a moment of objectivity, MAYBE i could have see the pattern emerging. Its so much easier to do when you aren't immersed in it.
:-)

Anyways, I intend to include everything in here I would my normal Magical Journal. That means everything is fair game: Dreams, Synchronicities, Omens, Inspirations, Obsessions, Voces Magicae, Enochian Invocation, experiments with the Spasmatrix/Dreamtongue,....as well as mundane experiences, people I meet, family, friends, lovers, everyone.

Because Magick is not bound to just the moments between the commencement of ritual and its end. Magick is, I have found, the profound experience of Soul shining through the Manifest realm.This world is an illusion, after all, and we who are Magi are illusionists. We play with illusion (Maya) the way a child plays with sand castles. So the point is not to become too fixated on things and events, too caught up in making "something happen", for it is impermanent and won't last forever.

All this world is a vast mystery revealing itself through us, so that through each other we may see how we are part of it. It does not exist for us, we exist for it.

When we realize this then the small ego and the BIG COSMIC mind blend into each other, and True Magick happens,...not because we willed it to be, but because our will and the will of the Divine [for that moment] were one. When we unite with the mystery we become the mystery and it becomes us. In that way we partake of the transcendent.

Knowing this, I still succumb to the desire to figure out how the story's gonna go. But each time I think I know how the story's going, thats when it changes! LoL! So, I really dont know if writing this all down is going to help or not. In fact it may even make it more chaotic.

I mean, the more changes I am aware of, the more this will feedback and create more interference, thus more change.

Oh well....if we are all made in the image of the Creator, with the power to create worlds into being, then maybe its inevitable that karma will result. I mean, we can't NOT create, can we. We are doomed to create something. So we may as well make it a good thing.

So long as I strive with purity of intent then I am protected by virtue. What will be shall be, and I am as much a part of the Wheel of Karma as anyone else. This is something I have learned all too well...that although I may see whats coming, I still cannot change it. But as all good actors cannot change their lines, but are able to throw themselves into their roles, making them wholly theirs, so must I. Even though the script isnt finished, I will write the story as it unfolds, and together we may discover,....what happens next....????